You can be at the top of the world one minute and down in the deepest trench the next. I was re-reading my last post and remembering how excited (and scared) I was about our upcoming arrival.
Two weeks ago, I went for my ultrasound and found out the baby had died.
God lets these things happen for a reason; I have to believe that. The doctor said there were a lot of health problems showing in the scan and this is really for the best. I have to believe that, too.
So it's been a couple of really bad weeks. But, day by day, I'm not as depressed. Life does go on. I haven't been able to be around people I know, but I'm doing better with being around strangers. Does that sound weird? Most days, I get dressed and do school with Hope and run whatever errands are needed. I'm crocheting again. I know one day, a long time from now, I won't be as sad. I have to believe that.
Thanks for reading.
Hug your babies tight, even if they're grown up and taller than you.
Blessings.
I'm so sorry for your loss hun - sending you lots of comforting hugs. <3
ReplyDeleteHugs from me too. I never know what to say when someone has a bereavement. Just know that I care. Take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteEven though I do not know you (I love reading your blog!), my thoughts and prayers are with you. And you are so right about hugging your children- mine are 23 and 25 and it happened all in the blink of an eye! Again prayers are with you!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your loss. I understand about the strangers..maybe it's because they don't ask any questions and then we don't have to give any answers. I don't know. We lost our baby at three months old, after many many heart surgeries. It wasn't easy..never want to go through anything like that again. The comfort I found was knowing that I will see him again and he is pain free and at peace..Hugs to you
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ReplyDeletesorry for your lost.... i hope you feel better...
ReplyDeleteMy dear friend, I believe that you will feel better than now in a few days... God knows the best of course and the doctor said very good. Maybe the baby will have some health problems or mental problems or some bad things.. Of course God know the best.. I will pray for you be sure.. You are a very good woman.. God bless all of your family..
ReplyDeleteSo sorry ..
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. Sending cyper hugs.
ReplyDeleteLinda
So very sorry to hear about your sad news, God bless sending hugs to you and your family xx
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. Hugs xx
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. Hugs and prayers to everyone. I'm glad you can start crocheting and healing.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear that. Huge hugs. My daughter lost hers after carrying him for 8 months, just all of a sudden died inside of her. I know it's hard and the heartache you feel. xxxxx
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of your loss. May you find solace as you connect with your family and crocheting.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, our thoughts of with you.
ReplyDeleteVery sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
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